What if God says "no?"

 Sometimes I find that my life and illness is very overwhelming for me. I have so much on my mind.  I am not even sure if I am scared.  It's hard.  I don't like not having any control over all of this.  I've learned I have to change myself and get busy on the rest of my life... however long that is.  I don't want to go out like this!  I am not giving up.  But, What if God says "no?"  It's a time to look back, but most of all live for today.  I know that I am where I am supposed to be.  I know that when the time is right, God will open the door for me. "God's ways are not always our way."  I just have to "Let go and let God."  I know He is beside me always.  When I can't see Him, when I cannot hear his voice... He is still there for me.  I have to trust in that.  It's just hard!

 A friend from High School sent me this video.  It is wonderful. Thanks Elissa.

Click here to see the video. What if God Says No. By The Akins.  Here are the lyrics:

One year ago today, she got the call

That stopped her life

And ever since that moment,

He prayed God would heal his wife

She got weaker by the minute

In that hospital bed

And she could see that he was mad at

God, so she took his hand and said

What if God says no

It don’t mean He loves us less

It just means He knows what’s best

What if God says no

It’s enough we have His grace

So don’t let go of your faith

What if God says no

Just south of Atlanta,

It’s been slow out on his job

But now he’s lovin on his family

And has time to talk to God

He’s prayin that a miracle

Will turn his business back around

But what if God gives him the answer

That His grace is good for now

Jesus prayed on the last night

Before He was crucified

And said, “Dad if there’s another way,

Could you let this pass me by?”

But God saw the big picture,

That it had to be done

So as much as it hurt,

He couldn’t say yes to His Son

(Nick and David Akin/ Chris White Music BMI)