Crossroads

 I am aware that I am at a crossroads in my life.  I am waiting to hear the results of tests that will change my life greatly.  If my blood work is therapeutic and my blood clots have dissolved they can do the CT scan to see if the mass in my lung has changed.  If it is safe to do a biopsy they will schedule it. 

The nurse and caseworker came to evaluate if I should go into an assisted living facility, or have someone stay with me 24/7.  I will do whatever I need to do to avoid that.  I can't even entertain the thought of not having my dogs.  Maria will be out of work when she has the baby.  It is hard for me to open the door and let someone new in, even if it is just temporary.  I have lived alone most of the last 20 years.  I've had good assistants and I have had bad ones too. 

God has His timing. My niece and her son are going to come stay with me for a few months.  It should be interesting.

He Will Be

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don't waste time...

you carry whatever you're supposed to be doing, carry that forward and don't waste any more time. Start embracing the life that is calling you and use your life to serve the world."

He Will Carry Me

And even though I'm walking through

The valley of the shadow

I will hold tight to the hand of Him

Whose Love will comfort me

And when all hope is gone

And I've been wounded in the battle

He is all the strength that I will ever need

He will carry me.

Even though I feel so lonely

Like I've never been before

You never said it would be easy...

But You said You'd see me through the storm.

invite or isolate

 ...that to love is to be vulnerable. Love is the opening of the heart, the welcoming of your beloved. Loving is not secure, authentic loving is risky. Security lies behind the walls of a closed heart. You either invite the union by opening in love, or you secure the isolation by closing down.

Faith and Doubts

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On this day of your life, we believe

God wants you to know...

that true faith flowers from and through doubt.

 

If you never questioned your beliefs, - you are just a puppet dancing to somebody's strings. If God had wanted your mindless obedience, you would've been created without mind and without free will. But you have both so you can come to God of your own accord. Just look at the lives of saints, - most of them had gone through a dark night of the soul, and that's why their faith was so strong. The path to true faith always goes through doubt. So ask those questions you've always been afraid to ask, and find the answers, and then your faith will become unshakable.

Listen for the whispers

 

Your life is speaking to you.   

 What is it saying?

Be Still

I have felt the presence of God my whole life. Even when I didn't have a name for it, I could feel the voice bigger than myself speaking to me, and all of us have that same voice. Be still and know it. You can acknowledge it or not. You can worship it or not. You can praise it, you can ignore it or you can know it. Know it. It's always there speaking to you and waiting for you to hear it in every move, in every decision. I wait and I listen. I'm still—I wait and listen for the guidance that's greater than my meager mind. 

Life's Lessons

Millions of people from all over the world watched as Oprah signed off on her 25 year talkshow.  Here are some of the highlights for me.

Each one of you has your own platform. Do not let the trappings here fool you. Mine is a stage in a studio, yours is wherever you are with your own reach, however small or however large that reach is. Maybe it's 20 people, maybe it's 30 people, 40 people, your family, your friends, your neighbors, your classmates, your classroom, your co-workers. Wherever you are, that is your platform, your stage, your circle of influence. That is your talk show, and that is where your power lies. In every way, in every day, you are showing people exactly who you are. You're letting your life speak for you. And when you do that, you will receive in direct proportion to how you give in whatever platform you have. 

"My great wish for all of you who have allowed me to honor my calling through this show is that you carry whatever you're supposed to be doing, carry that forward and don't waste any more time. Start embracing the life that is calling you and use your life to serve the world.

You are responsible for your life. ... You are responsible for the energy that you create for yourself, and you're responsible for the energy that you bring to others.

Every single person you will ever meet shares that common desire. They want to know: 'Do you see me? Do you hear me? Does what I say mean anything to you?

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"The only time I've ever made mistakes is when I didn't listen. So what I know is, God is love and God is life, and your life is always speaking to you. First in whispers. ... It's subtle, those whispers. And if you don't pay attention to the whispers, it gets louder and louder."

Because nothing but the hand of God has made this possible for me.  I know I've never been alone, and you haven't either. And I know that that presence, that flow—

Some people call it grace—is working in my life at every single turn. And yours too, if  you let it in. It's closer than your breath, and it is yours for the asking

Trust

You are exactly where you are meant to be.  Trust in God that everything is exactly the way it is supposed to be.  Just as a child has to pass through a tiny channel on its way from the womb into  life, so are you on your way to God

Ask

God wants you to know that you only need to ask. 

He is waiting for your asking, waiting to reach out to you.

It is ok to ask for help. Sometimes we get overwhelmed with the details and complexities of our lives.   Sometimes we need some help to get untangled, to gain a new perspective.  Ask for help.  Help may come in human or divine form.  It may be seen or unseen. Ask and ye shall receive.